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以后有多久？或许真的情感是经过时间的沉淀， 距离的筛选，命运的压磨，悲欢离合的雕琢， 最终才从心中滤出来，最后明白了归属感的一种感觉。 25 octobre UnattainableUnattainable
The shape of the flowing water in the spring The shadow of the flaming sun in the summer The sound of the flavored grapes in the fall The smell of the falling snow in the winter
The figures of your glance pick the grapes The arms of your breath mix them with water The shoulders of your song shelter them from the sun The body of your temperature blocks them from the snow In an imaginary oak barrel
As the texture of rainbow As the color of dew And as hopeful conciousness v.s. unconciousnessThere is a rare disease, of which the patient would look at his mother and say “this woman looks exactly like my mother, but I am sure she’s NOT.” Freud’s believers concluded that this was a denial of a man’s sexual desire of his mother: because he couldn’t admit that he was sexually attracted to his mother, he denied the fact that this woman was actually his mother. However, you can imagine how weird it was when a patient claimed that his pet dog PiPi was not actually his PiPi but some other dog looked exactly like PiPi. With better technology and improved brain science, doctors now understand that this disease is caused by the damage of the link between the vision section and the emotion section within the brain. The patient sees his mother, and rationally recognizes this woman looks exactly like his mother. However, the patient doesn’t feel the emotional warmth he expects from his mother while looking at this woman due to the disconnection between the two parts of the brain, and thus he draws the conclusion based on his emotional decision – “she is NOT my mother” – even though it is contradictory to his rational recognition – “she looks exactly the same as my mother”. However, during treatment, by recognizing this fact, the patient would start to live a normal life with his mother in some time. He just has to overcome his lack of emotional attachment and acknowledge this woman who looks exactly his mother is actually his mother. This case implies: 1. When not aware, we follow our subconscious and emotional conclusion, even it is opposite to the rational one. 2. When acknowledged, we are able to overcome the subconscious impulse to adjust our behavior and act according to our rational judgment. The war between our conscious mind and subconscious impulse never stops, and the battle field is within our fragile brain. The more we know about it, the less painful we are. To learn more about our mind, please refer to the works of Dr. Vilayan Ramachandran at University of California San Diego. A right-handed who wishes to be left-handedThis is NOT a political statement, nor a confession on personal preference. This is about philosophy. “I shouldn’t have expected this!” “Your expectation is unrealistic / gives me too much pressure.” If you have said/heard the above statement, you probably have thought about the “expectation issues”, and you are with me. As we all know, our left brain controls the right side of our body and our right brain controls the left side. Therefore, if we want to practice any one of our brain more, we should exercise the opposite part of the body. Current brain studies show that the left brain is in charge of remembering our pass and projecting our future, and our right brain is to receive and process the current surrounding. For example, when you are handed a glass of wine, your eyes see the crystal red color and liquid shape, your nose smell the intoxicating sense, and all the signals are sent to your right brain, which collects them and put them together. Then the information is transferred to the left brain, which draws conclusion based on your previous experience – this thing tastes good and makes you happy – and projects what might happen in the future, in other words, generates expectation – I will be happier after drinking this. If your right brain is more active than the left one, you focus on the current surrounding more: you enjoy the moment. If our left brain is more active, you pay more attention to the past and/or the future: you “think” too much. Therefore, if you have “expectation problems”, you want to make your right brain, which looks at the present, more active, and thus should use your left hand more. So, I use mouse and chop-sticks with my left hand now. 6 avril in the stream of timeIn the stream of time - a story about others In the stream of time, we found a wish bottle. We opened it, and uncovered a story of others. In the stream of time, two random leaves encountered each other. They talked about the cloud, walked along the moon, and flirted with the stars. All the weather was sunny, even the spring cold shower was warm. The stream of time became smoky. Sparkling lightening bugs were dancing, like the music notes from his guitar. They tangled on the grass, whistled in the ocean, and discovered in the wildland. They were two bees found the stream of honey, too busy to dance the song of joy and forgot to harvest. She drowned in the sea dreamily, while he was wandering around like a confused seahorse. The stream of time surrendered to the chilly long winter. Water froze, fell apart, and broke into thousands of sharp pieces, tore into her face as her tear rolled down. Drinking the wine of her sadness, he suffered. Spring brought lives bac to the stream of time. Her bleeding heart grew into a red corral, colorful, delightful and peaceful. He turned into a clown fish, swam with his kind, but never wanted to leave the beautiful corral. In the stream of time, Are they both strong stones standing still regardless the force of water? Are they a pair of brave fish swimming against the strength of wave? Or, are they just two paper boats, carrying beautiful yet fragile wishes, floating... NightNight, Chilly, tearful, long and tight, Like a heart-broken woman's sigh. Night, As if I want to cry, As if sorrow will never go by, As if life is saying to me "nice try." However, Night, will eventually yield to the morning light, the first beautiful warm sunshine, when the birds are singing with delight, and the butterflies are dancing with smile. (At that moment, will you be by my side?) Written at a sleepless night on the rain forest mountain in Puerto Rico. 21 février Let’s go to Six FlagLet’s go to Six Flag - a poem dedicated to 2008 Valentine's Day another over-application of economic models to lifeI think ultimately, what we are obsessing with and constantly struggling against is not "your" need/interest versus "my" need/interest, but instead my own or your own short term need/interest and long term need/interest. I would like to illustrate this by starting with explaining why the needs of us are essentially not conflicting. One of the basic assumption is people are self-interested, and we all value our happiness over theirs. Prisoners' Dilemma models were decided to find out what is the best strategy in each different setting. In a long term repeating game, the overwhelming winner is "tic for tac", meaning I will repeat whatever strategy you applied in the previous game, and this will eventually leads to all cooperation solutions. One example is the open source software, which actually help the creator nice profits. Another example is improving of management strategies for corporations. So, what's the source of conflicts? Most of the time, it can be traced to the conflicting interest for the same person - desire for different things, or the short term v. long term. I always tell people the opportunity cost for studying is too high b/c I can otherwise be having fun or working to make money. However, the long term paid off of having better education and more skills is plausible. In order to be making more money ten years from now, I choose to sacrifice some joy or potential income today. It does not mean we are making irrational decision by having fun now because there are two critical factors influencing our decision making: marginal rate of substitute and discounting rate for future income/utility. Discounting rate of future utility is obvious, and the marginal utility of substitute is between the joy of say watching a movie now and the feeling of satisfaction from knowing I am working hard for tomorrow's exam and will do good at it and potentially (with a certain range of probability of) getting a better job in the future. Nevertheless, the origins of conflicts are from different marginal rate of substitute and discounting rate for future income/utility varying from person to person. The model is: future income * probability to gain that income * discounting rate = current utility of expectation future utility when: enjoy life now / current utility of expected future utility = marginal rate of substitution, we are in an indecisive mood, otherwise, we will decide to do one or the other. Despite of all these differences, we all hang out with people having similar marginal rate of substitute and discounting rate as we do. Just for different things. We go movie with friends who have higher marginal rate of substitute of movie over other things; we go drinking with people who have as low of discounting rate of not having a headache tomorrow morning as we do. Then, each individual has a very complex set of marginal rate of substitute and discounting rate, which are dynamic, and we don't always make the same decisions. At the end of the day, we are just conflicting with ourselves, internally, indecisively and infinitely. |
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